Father's Day Picnic

Sunday was Father's Day. Every year we always have a picnic at my uncle's house and at his house thee is a 4' deep pool. Now, as you can imagine having my brother and sister in a pool together isn't the best idea,but they seemed to be fine so i went over and hung out with my daddy. About thirty minutes into the picnic my little cousin came over to play catch with my brother and my older cousin and as soon as he came over he started calling my brother stupid and mean and a monster. Justin understands that he is different and like any other person gets his feelings hurt when people call him names, so to try and calm him down i suggested that he goes back into the pool. Around the time when that happened my dad came over and told me that he had to go drop off my aunt at her house and would only be a few minutes. Expecting that what he said was true i told him okay and went over to talk to my grandfather. Not even 10 minutes after my dad was gone did i hear a scream coming  from the pool. i scurried over there to see what was the matter and i see my brother trying to push my sister under the water. I started yelling, "Justin stop!" and he looked at me and stopped. He started grunting and huffing. I knew at that point it wouldn't be safe for Justin to be in the pool by himself. I swiftly changed out of my clothes, into my bathing suit and was walking to the pool to try and calm down my brother. As   i was walking i over heard my little cousin saying to my aunt "i would go in the pool, but Justin is in there, he ruins everything." I wanted to turn around so badly and just hit him. I could feel the rage and hate build up inside of me and all i wanted to do at that point was scream in his face. But knowing that my brother needed me, i swallowed my pride and walked to the pool. When i got up on the deck i turned around and saw my little cousin was behind me. I ignored him and jumped into the bitterly cold water, swimming to Justin. When Justin's eyes met my cousin's i could tell something was about to happen. Justin pushed me out of the way and dashed to my cousin. i quickly caught up with him, grabbed him, and pulled him to the side of the pool. I started screaming Justin whats wrong! And all he said was "I have to kill him." By the time this all happened my dad had been gone 15 minutes so i was left all alone to deal with the situation. i tried to distract him by throwing him in the air or showing him the pool toys, but nothing would get his mind off of hurting the little 6 year old boy. I asked Justin why he wanted to hurt him so badly and he said that my cousin had called him stupid and an idiot. I tried to explain to him that hitting is not okay but no matter how hard i tried he kept getting away from me, rushing over to my cousin and i had to chase after him. I felt hopeless. Nothing i did was working. He spent almost 20  minutes screaming and chasing this little boy and all i could do was run after him. no adult dared to come help, i dont know why just no one came and tried. I kept begging him to try and calm sown but he didnt listen! i did everything in my power to try and make him stop growling and hitting me and running after this little boy but nothing was working. When my dad finally got back i screamed for him and he came running to the pool edge. As soon as he got to the side, i burst into tears. Not because my brother had hit me or anything, but because i could see nothing but pure hate in  Justin's eyes. The pale crystal blue eyes that were once filled with joy, love, and happy memories were now nothing but rage, violence, and hate. I couldn't help myself. All i knew what to do was cry. I felt like i had failed as a sister. No matter what i did i couldn't get the thought of hurting my cousin out of his mind and no one came over to help. i locked myself in the bathroom until it was time to go. The hole car ride home i didnt look at my brother once. I felt like it was my fault he couldn't calm down. I had failed him. I was on my own and all i did was make everything worse.  if you have any questions or comments please feel free to saw something :)